Yawn. This is some tiring day... hadn't even fallen to sleep when i smelt gas in my room last night...Woke the whole family so we went around searching... But in the end we just couldnt find the damn cause, so i took my pillow and blanket and went to the 3rd floor to sleep. slept for about 3 hours, then was dragged outta bed by my mum to go lunch and repair my bro's nano. My eyes were always 3/4 shut during the outing... so damned stoned! and in the end we didnt get the ipod repaired, cause they said wait until the water dries up... what a complete waste of time... i could have hibernated more at home.

Reached home, chatted with people online.. and i thought well maybe what you said makes complete sense. Well at least it works for normal people i guess, but havent you forgotten that im always crazy!!! so yeah i guess it just doesnt suit me. Thank goodness i had someone to talk too or it'd be so weird to emo in the house in the hot afternoon...and yes, i know its damn stupid to get emo while watching stars, but sorry la! cant help it if im born this way rite! basket! some kind of friend! i tell you i almost break down yesterday while star gazing you laugh! %$&$%^& next time dont tell you already la hmph! thank goodness there was someone with me yesterday night if not until now i'd still be at mt faber...

When i think about what happened yesterday, i get lost. The things going through my mind during the star gazing just didnt make sense at all... thats why i was so quiet anyways. running the thoughts through my mind over and over again. Trying to understand. Gets frustratin when at the end of it all you find that you're still stuck at the beginning and no where closer to understanding anything...

I hate the way I lie to myself...
Why's it so hard to just admit the truth?

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 4:19 AM