yikes its monday again.... god. need some sleep.......

"Mary Jane" by the click five. nice song!

I didn't cry the day you went away
didnt think that i would feel this pain
until i saw the stranger that was you
what ever happened to our innocence
And the somethin' that you said about being friends
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Chorus:
Could it be
that nothing's gonna change
cause time has got a way of taking back
everything you thought you had
can you see
the girl you used to be
the one i lost when i let go of you
oh whatever happened too mary jane...

i need to wake up from this state of mind
the situation is the same kind
i gotta get your memory out of my head
would you catch me if i had to fall
would you even find the time for that at all
tell me how
help me say the words out loud

Chorus:
Could it be
that nothing's gonna change
cause time has got a way of taking back
everything you thought you had
can you see
the girl you used to be
the one i lost when i let go of you
oh whatever happened too mary jane...

cause time has taken back
everything i thought we had
Mary jane...

Chorus:
Could it be
that nothing's gonna change
cause time has got a way of taking back
everything you thought you had
can you see
the girl you used to be
the one i lost when i let go of you
oh whatever happened to
Mary jane...

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 5:22 AM

Sips ending, its been a long 5 months, but its been fun made new friends!
Dinner and Dance would have made a great finale to my stay there.
School tomorrow. I'm so tired.

Could it be,
that nothings gonna change

the vulnerability of first love
and the emptiness that follows

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 6:58 AM

and so another week has come to an end.

And i wouldn't change a thing
i'd walk back through the rain
Back to every broken heart
on the day that it was breaking
and i'd relive all the years
and be thankul for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
that led to you and got me here
right here...

fuck i'm lost. i wish i could tell you how i feel

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 7:25 PM

I have to learn to stand on my own
Never to depend on others
I got to figure out what i want
stick to it.

But right now im confused
I feel broken
I dont have a clue whats the right path
Is there even a right path to take?

Ive been so moody it scares me
Ive been having the damn sleepless nights
waking up at 3 everyday without fail.
Gawd. and it started to hurt again
yet i just dont know when to stop

Im feeling so many emotions each day
Its hard to bottle up.
Sometimes i just want to break down
Sometimes i just wanna scream.
What has happened to me...

im so tired of it all.

Wont you tell me salvations around the corner?

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 11:12 AM

i wanna let you know what im thinking but can i?

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 7:31 AM

Run from your problems thats all you ever do.
You're pathetic.
Damn, i hate you.

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 5:17 AM

Change is inenvitable,
I've made some personal changes recently,
I hope that its for the best =)


If i look back on the last couple of weeks and say ive been happy.
I'd be lying.
Truth is, i have to force myself to put on a smile and show the world im fine.
Give me the choice i'd gladly be able to stay quiet and do nothing.
I used to ask myself where did i go wrong. What did i do? etc.
Music has been my only outlet, blasting songs into my ears
drowning out all surroundings, taking me away from reality
Friends have been there as support too, though you people probably wont know
ive been counting on you guys to cheer me up at times.
It was only a matter of time before everything i kept bottled inside came crashing out
Well we know what happened at Georges.

Now its just a matter of picking myself up again,
Im sure ill be able to do it.

Im learning to fall i can hardly breathe.

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 7:14 AM