I felt like i was in a dream today
i can still feel the wind.

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 9:14 AM

Its really funny how life gives you
unnexpected sweet surprises every once in awhile
=)

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 7:04 AM

"Forever and more"

Forever wasn't a word I could understand
Until I met you, you turned my life around
You look so pretty with your long black hair
You took my breath away, without saying a word

Prechorus:
You, you’re more then just special
And you, made my life worthwhile

Chorus:
Finally I can see now the skies are clear
You keep me alive with your words and more
I promise you baby to love you till the end
And I promise you forever and more
Promise you forever and more

Fate plays its games with destiny
You’re closer to me now, the feelings more profound
I wish that I could, pour my heart to you
Just afraid you’d turn away, without hearing me out

Pre-chorus*
Chorus*

Forever couldn’t be nearer
Forever couldn’t be better….

Cause you, you’re more then just special
And you, made my life worthwhile

Finally I can see now the skies are clear
You keep me alive with your words and more
I promise you baby to love you till the end
And I promise you forever and more
Promise you forever and more

Finally I can see now the skies are clear
You keep me alive with your words and more
I promise you baby to love you till the end
And I Promise you forever and more
Promise you forever and more

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 6:25 AM

oooh im gonna be back in about 7 hours.
Getting pretty homesick already!
But im sure im gonna miss the chilling and relaxing mood of vietnam once school starts!
Heres a pretty interesting conversation i had with my dads colleague

Ed: So randall you're studying biotech or something like that in poly right?
Randall: yeah something like that.
Ed: So you should aim for NTU! its a great place
Randall: thats if i can, which is highly unlikely.
Ed: I had my best years studying at NTU, If you get a chance to study there stay at the hostel
Randall: errr why?!
Ed: Extra curricular activities. *cheeky grin*
Randall: okayy...
Ed: Let me tell you about my job interview after i graduated.

Interviewer: So what have you gained from your time at NTU?
Ed: Alot? its been an enriching experience
Interviewer: Okay lets say this is a conversation between buddies, how would you answer that question?
Ed: Well since you put it that way. I've earned a Bachelors in Science,
A Masters in mahjong, and a phd in tennis

and he got the job i cant believe it. screw csas interview tips
Pretty much sums up my trip to vietnam this time... ive met many people from all over the world, and its really interesting. haha.
Alright gotta go pack up and change. see you guys back in singapore,
wheres my old mahjong set.....

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 8:40 PM

2 days more and i'll be back!
no more cup noodles and oreos for lunch
no more eating breakfast and lunch alone!

Wow looking back i think my trip this time is more eventful and kinda more relaxin then the previous one.
It feels great to be here and have nothing on my mind!
Only thing is im bored when ive got nothing to think about so i end up chatting on msn or practising guitar again. haha.

Was woken up by the phone ringing, my dad asking me whether i wanna go attend some press conference thingy with him.

Dad: Hey Ran, Im holding some sort of press conference you wanna come?
Randall: hmmm? press conference? okay.
Dad: good pick you up in 5 minutes
Randall: Huh? what 5!? *click*

Im supposed to bath change and get ready to leave the house in 5 minutes. crazy.
In the end he had to come up and rush me. yawn.
Omg so random im dying of boredom.

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 11:13 AM

Sometimes, at night
I see myself, looking oh so fine
Wake up, to find
the smile is gone, and there's only one reason why...

Chorus:
cause without you, i feel so lonely
I'm lost and im empty, wont you help me
Read this words, im writing for you
Would you tell me that you love me too.
cause i need you
i need you

Sometimes, I wish
That you would be, right beside me
When Im gone, would you know
I know I would, and theres only one reason why…

Chorus

Countless night times
ive thought of you, and your little smile
please lady wont you read this song
please lady dont let me fall

Chorus

So would you
Read these words, im writing for you
wont you tell me that you love me too
Cause i need you
i need you
i need you....

"I need You"

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 10:03 AM

The question I've always never had the answer for.

am i happy?

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 9:07 AM

my normal viet routine's back again... hot milo, music, ciggies and my laptop..

Ive got so many damn things i want to pen down or type out...
but its like confusing and shit one minute ill be writing bout this next minute bout another thing.
damn it. thats what a relaxing night in vietnam gives you. another big headache. shit.

music and lyrics.
would you sing to the tune i'd play?
i dont know. dont know if i ever will

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 10:13 AM

Well first day in vietnam phew. settled down after reaching home from the airport....
watched the the Beegees live concert DVD. They are awesome....
Went shopping around the area for awhile, saw nothing really interesting, except the fact that i've seen about 10 people holding iphones, and its not like expatriates. its the locals my gawd.
i was like oh my gawd, i havent seen an itouch let alone an iphone besides mine yet back home. and here some local was like waving it around talking in vietnamese. sheesh.
By the way it costs US600 for 1 set.

Went out for the customary welcome dinner with my dad, uncle ron and travis. guess what we had singaporean food at the singporean restaurant. Great! i travelled 2 hours on a plane to have my first proper meal which i could have back home. But well.. it was funny the way uncle ron and travis reacted when i order "kway chap" or to them braised pork innards.
Uncle Ron: Randall, how the fuck can you eat something like that
Me: I dunno its just nice. hahaha you should try it, it tastes awesome
Travis: Good for you buddy.
Caucasians just cant stand the food singaporeans eat sometimes.
love having dinner with them though their so open with their swearing and shit its like ahhh... i swear every sentence has something to do with a chick or an expletive.
After dinner, uncle ron suggested heading over to "no. 5" for a drink. *note the singular use of the word drink!
I have no idea how a drink became 5 tall glasses of vodka red bull. We hung around the bar i got to meet new people.. all expatriates business man and shit. and i tell you guys have just so much in common. its all about this chick, that chick or the chick thats gonna arrive soon... haha
As we were chatting, travis grabbed me and went:
Randall finish your drink and lets go.
Me: Go? Go where?
Travis: you'll know soon enough
Me: okay! hey wait dont you have a flight to the US at 5 in the morning? dont you need rest?
Travis: who cares, its a 20 hour flight home i can sleep on the plane
So off we went leaving the two dads behind, so it was just me the 19year old kid and a 26 year old guy..
We checked out this bar/club called "Lido" oh man the eye candy there. shit you just sit at the bar you feel like you just stepped into eye candy empire or something.
We opened an absolut, and trav poured me a generous and i mean generous helping.
Randall: Trav, stop i dont wanna get a hangover tomorrow
Travis: dude you wanna know how you dont get hangovers?
Randall: how?
Travis: drink more vodka! now shut up and drink i'll get the mixers.
We sat at the bar chatting playing stupid games with people... until like 2.. by which i can swear i was almost dead from the vodka
Travis: lets go man i wanna get barbequed squid and some beer
Randall: urghh.... okay. hey wait, aren't you allergic to seafood?
Travis: Its a ritual whenever i drink i gotta have my bbq squid, and besides im half drunk so who cares.
Randall: my god your dad wasn't kidding you are crazy.

So off we went, to some roadside bar he got his squid and got us beers. my god he can really drink.

I was halfway through my 2nd bottle, and he was like 5th or something

Travis: Randall, look. I'm 26, which is too say I'm past my prime of partying and shit, now are you gonna let ME! an old man show you up!? cmon lets get 2 more.
Randall: you're crazy. you're totally absolutely fucking crazy...
Travis: thats what they tell me.
around 4 we left the bar and went our separate ways, I sat a cab home which was about 2 dollars? and i think the fucker cheated me. i gave him 10000 dongs and he only gave me back 5. Didnt realise it till this morning when i checked the change in my jeans. Ah wtf. a midnight cab in singapore costs much more anyway.

By the way drinking more vodka really works! Ive got totally no hangover!

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 8:24 PM

posted all the photos up...
Gotta rush my log book now before wednesday!


I'm escaping reality

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 6:56 PM

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 6:48 PM

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 6:45 PM

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 6:44 PM

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 6:34 PM

Sip's over its such a strange feeling, felt sad yet happy as i stepped out of the place... gonna miss some people over there. Heres some pictures!

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 6:24 PM

Its close to 12, i can't sleep im just staring out at the night sky,
listening to the rain and watching lightning strike from the sky
Ironic but it kinda invokes a tranquil feeling inside of me.

Beautiful.

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 7:38 AM

Time passes so fast, it makes me feel uptight, i cant even gather my emotions.
Damn.

So SIP is coming to an end, wow. 5 months *zoom* gone. its been fun... now its back to school.

Recently many things that occur around me, cause me to think or miss something:

I miss my Dad, i watch football and sometimes i turn around expecting to comment on the match but theres no one there. Just me and the tv.

I'm waiting at the bus stop for 317, a 101 goes by... i think of the times i used to take the long ride to hougang just to have breakfast. I miss those days, where life wasn't so complicated and all i cared about was fun.

I walk down the hill leadin to my house, i think of the night's we'd used to walk down sharing a ciggarette and looking forward to prata and teh tarik. Those nights dont happen too often now.

I miss the nights where drinking involved nothing but simple games. Banter among buddies, where i'd watch you idiots get drunk and puke all over. Just a corner a bottle and us, that was the way it used to be. Now it feels different with some of you bringing your babes and stuff. We dont really get much of chance to talk now do we...

I look out into the sky right now. I miss my nights in vietnam, a pack and coffee/milo and my laptop beside me. Sitting at the balcony typing my way through the night, breath taking view all night long of the river and the moon.

I miss the poly people, the nonsense and bullshit that goes on in school never fails to make my day. Well at least we'll be going back soon enough!

I think back alot on life nowadays, and i just think how am i different from before?
Many people will tell you that there are a few words that can be closely associated with me:
Bastard, Jerk, Asshole etc. whatever expletive you can fit in there.
people tend not to be able to take me serious, like im always a joker and a clown 24/7.

Truth is im the same as everyone else. I just express myself differently. Hate it so much when people look at me and say: can never link randall and serious together.
My god you dont know me so stop labelling me, just because of the way i portray myself.
You dont know me.

Ive been feeling so detached from everything in life, it started last year during november and now its almost a year and the feelings still there. When can i ever really find my peace again.

A few words for a few special people

To 9159****:
I know you've just been through a rough patch, but hey you have to move on! Dont be sad and angry just because things aren't going your way. You're a great friend and you definitely are a wonderful person, dont let anyone ever get you down. Stay happy, you look better when you're happy.

P.s I'm sorry i couldnt meet you the other day at school i was dead tired after my project evaluation.

To missy:
I know what i've put you through is probably causing you to have some emotional hurricane or tornado and im so damn sorry. This shouldn't be the way things turn out, you deserve someone much better than me. You'll always be a great friend and i'm still gonna lend you a listening ear or entertain you if you're bored =)

To you:
You're probably never going to read this so i have no idea why im writing it here.
I've had some time to think things through.
Its gonna be hard on me to face you, and yet i don't think i can ever find the time or the courage to explain everything to you. Its confusing night after night, i don't know. I don't know whether i should forget about everything and leave it be.
But for now im just gonna hold on and pray cause its been a long time since ive felt this way.

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 11:10 AM