Sunday, August 26, 2007
but at least for now,
I gotta go my own way...
Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 7:08 AM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Lyrics if anyones interested.
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, people's faces blurred out
Like the sun spots or raindrops
Now all those feelings,
those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
Left the only worries I had in my hands
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel'
Cause feelings mean nothing now
All those feelings,
those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
(yeah today is on my mind)
Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where feelings mean nothing now
All those feelings,
those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
(all be lost in time)
But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
for today is on my mind
yeah today is on my mind
Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart...
Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 12:46 PM
San Juan De Alima
picture of the his families farm house! The path leading to the lake is heavenly...
Well...
My friend and "guardian" since i was a young teen, Rodrigo Fernandez has left Singapore to continue his studies back in Mexico City... So going to miss him.
After reading his first email since he went back i suddenly thought back on the times I used to tease him for incorporating singlish into his language. Ahhh... Makes me feel proud to be Singaporean =) , the times he used to talk to me, chide me whenever i sweared which was ever so often...
I swear some of the pictures of mexico he sent me were beautiful.
I feel like flying there after graduation now... *dream*
Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 12:29 PM
Monday, August 13, 2007
Listening to every word,
Its hard to find a song you really connect with.
I saw a shooting star the other night.
For some really weird reason i just stopped walking and started wishing...
After awhile, i started thinking and well...
it wasn't exactly how i imagined viewing a shooting star would be like.
It was there for like 3 seconds and then *poof* gone.
Not exactly enough time to savour the moment huh...
Wishing so badly i could go back into the past....
Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 7:18 AM
Friday, August 3, 2007
You're so wrong.
you've never really known what its like,
to know that the one you love would be in the arms of another...
I feel like a lost kid.
Maybe you should tell me how i should feel...
I know whatever i say now wont ever change what happened in the past.
I was an ass then. I probably still am an ass now...
We've changed so much since the time we met at the chalet.
But still i love you.
If i'm not the one you really want anymore...
Just let me know,
If you're afraid i cant give up.
Dont be. I'll try if it kills me.
Time heals all wounds doesn't it?
You're still able to bring back the light in my eyes.
Did you know that?
Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 8:31 AM
Thursday, August 2, 2007
incredible.
I thought i'd never get into something like this but here i am...
Stuck in the middle of no where.
Its just not right.
Knowing that you're in love with someone else.
Maybe its cause i dont feel that special feeling of being "the one"
I just can't make any sense of my thoughts now...
Minds a wreck. shit.
To be this close to you, and not be able to do anything?
Maybe you should try...
I'm not saying im the only one feeling the hurt.
On one hand you've got him,
on the other hand you've got me.
So its sorta like picking one up and putting the other down.
Me...
I dont know what i am now actually...
When im with you its fine.
When im not its a whole different story isn't it?
The feelings i have to store away, the emotions.
It aint easy, trust me.
To live a lie,
a constant dark presence
Eating away at my conscience.
It affects me alot maybe cause when im hiding the feelings,
it really gets me thinking.
What am i into now?
Where's the future in this?
Maybe it doesnt affect you as much as it does me,
cause you never really have to put down that love?
You say its a different kind of love.
But isnt love all the same thing?
A feeling of deep affection for a person?
Its just not right principally, ethically.
Hell its just not right for me to be doing this to someone.
In some sense im becoming my father.
I admire him in so many ways. and yet he has his flaws...
I cant live with this feeling for long...
I just cant.
Not knowing when it would end is worse.
So I'm going to back up. and remove myself emotionally.
I've got no choice....
We can be friends still I'm sure. But i cant be the one on the side any longer...
Learn to trust girl. You have too....
What is meant to be,
would it be a reality?
Lift me from my dreams one day
So i'd hold you in my arms to stay,
If that moment were to come
I'd gladly be the one
To grow old and become
Your lover and then some.....
Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 6:14 AM