Chapter 1 Part 2 "The Plunge"
Things changed from that night onwards, he lost that glimmer in his eyes and seemed lifeless in whatever he did. He stopped talking during meal times and finished quick to get away from them...

December 31st, 2003
New years Eve, he attended a barbeque at the beach, and it was there he picked up on a habit that would he wouldn quit till a few years later. The habit came in the form of attractive bottles, an assortment of colours to him it seemed like a forbidden fruit then. So he indulged in them, drinking till he lost all sense and fell asleep on the rock formations......

February 18th, 2004
Another birthday celebration but this time he decided not to be a part of it. Celebrations lost meaning to him already... he was feeling an all time low, even the drinks that were supposed to numb the pain inside were not helping much anymore. He realised no matter how much he drank, when he awoke the pain was still there.... His thoughts ran wild on him these days, which led to him losing focus in lessons and the results showed. Crying before he slept wasnt uncommon for him during those days, when he felt that he was alone... and no one understood him. He realised he needed help soon after that, counselling sessions began, but they didnt do much good. So he was referred to a specialist, given some pills to help and required to go for "talks" often....
Strangely... It was these talks that shaped him into what he was today, he started to create a wall around his heart and to shut everything out. He started smiling again. Everyone thought he was fine, if only they knew....

Do you know what goes on behind that smile? =)

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
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