Well... sometimes the truth just has to bloody hurt so much. what the hell la. I didnt want to lose her... Its cause of some bloody misunderstanding and guess what!? until now! the misunderstanding is still going on!

It sucks cause people say blame yourself for letting things turn out this way. blame yourself for letting her get so close to you without you saying a damn bloody thing.
Dont you think i havent blamed myself yet?!
Ive been blaming my damn self for the every single day for the past 3 months already damn it.
Everyday i think about what i did wrong, what things could have been and im like so freaking close to breaking down sometimes.
Everynight lying in bed, i shut my eyes cover my ears with my pillow but the guilt haunts me.
And everytime you people say its also your fault dont keep blaming the other girl. YES I KNOW!!! i wish i could let you people feel how i feel inside...

ps. xf im not blaming you for bringing that topic up i just needed to write this out. =D



time hasnt given me the privilege of forgiveness....
and im not sure i deserve it either....

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 6:22 AM