After sitting at the balcony and thinking i realise that ive been living in self denial this few months. Ive been hiding behind a wall this past few months afraid of letting anyone into my feelings and my thoughts. Sometimes i really wish i can just sit, brood and stay quiet when im with people. But then most of the times in those situations the people im with are usually also emo. So I'll put on that smile and try to cheer them up. Im thankful for this trip someways cause these past few nights ive really been able to sort out my feelings. And ive come to realise that ive left the past behind and started to slowly but surely move on. I have a few messages i wanna say to the special people around me.

For isabel: If you read this i wish once again that you and him, will always be happy together. Im sorry for the unhappiness i unfairly caused you during the months we were together. If theres anything you need feel free to ask. =)

For Ken: Thanks buddy for the talks, the sitting down the chilling outs. Ive probably inconvenienced you and your parents the past 6 years often! Im really glad to know you as a friend, the past 2 weeks we spent after you booked out of BMT really changed something in me somehow. I just wanna say say thanks for being there for me.

For Jeremy: Thanks for the listening ears in our car or bus rides home together. you've been the closest friend ive made since entering poly. You're one person who can tell whats wrong with me and what to do to get me to laugh. Im glad that you finally can be with her after so long. So now its no longer we getting together in the middle of the night to share problems and laugh about it... Its me finding you now! haha. =)

For Brent: Yo man! since getting to know you, we've caused lots of hell together in school and outside. Ill never forget the time we both got caught smoking together outside cineleisure and you were one person i could always count on to go drinking!!!! haha though i cant hold me liquor as well as you can! The dinner outings we go on often will always continue! its like tradition! haha. Me, you and Medkipit! haha too bad Sean and Justin went into army already....Miss the supper days after raiding! haha. I still dunno what happens of Cg asks us for our surnames? you wanna be Brent Chua or should i be Randall Sim... hmmmmm... haha.

For Xuefang: Hey girl thanks for the suppers, the nights out at the beach just sitting down and talking... Listening to me crap on and on. You must be suffering having to endure the lameness of my jokes sometimes! But its been nice these outings, though most of the time you sit there stoning away and i have to drag you back to reality with "out of the blue" topics! Be happy girl! and theres nothing wrong with being a pig! Its a luxury of life =)

For Medwin: Medkipit! you must be enjoying life in Aussie now u ass!!!! Get me a souvenir! and im not talking bout a boomerang or some kangaroo toy! haha. Same as Brent I appreciate you being there for me, drinking sessions and what not. Theres still something that bothers me though...... You damn Biatchhhh! how come me and Brent got caught and you were the lucky one who went to buy food!!!! ARGHHH!!! haha. I wanna go for supper again! drive me around vrrroooom...

And the 2g people! theres just too many of you!: though you prolly wont read this haha. maybe zy,brent or med will be kind enough to share how much i appreciate you all! The times we spent together on outings will never be forgotten! I just dont get something... how come we never had chalet!? As usual cause we're all too lazy... Simplest is just to: Tomorrow 2pm PS movie. hahaha.... Lets go swimming again! =)

Im blessed to know you all.
-randall-

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
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