I havent been myself, ive never really felt the meaning of anything since the start of the year... Its frustrating cause i really dont like feeling this way... A friend i was with recently said: you've changed alot since we last met!, its like theres a wall between you and the world now.
But hasnt there always been one?
since secondary school ive been like this putting on a face so the world wouldnt know im unhappy. That laugh that smile that you all see so often hasnt it always been there since 2004?
So what is she trying to tell me?
That i should remove that facade and let the whole world see my unhappiness? Whats the point in that all? If i let the world see that whats the use?! Will it bring me back my happiness, will it take away my sadness? If it would i'd gladly do it. But until someone proves to me it can... This facade is staying.
Im staring at the sky now and wondering how i let my life become like this.

What if told you i love you. would you help me along this journey?

Wow it feels damn good to write that out. =)

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
- 3:23 AM