January 18th.

Yikes so today im feeling so much more at ease now. Though sometimes i still think how i ever let my emotions control me. Ive never been like this before poly. Wonder what other surprises poly holds in store for me.
Due to my insomnia, ive been really really such a pain in the ass for some people... i apologise for that. Im just that teeeni weeeni bit crazier during times like this. Lets just hope i dont become dependant on the sleeping pills. And i get easily irritated during this period too so outburst and public display of irritation and anger are common and i apologise in advance for the people who will be affected by it...

okae. ive tried to change the damn blog skin, but it keeps telling me error blah blah blah. nonsense crap shit. damn new blogger. pissing me off even more! rahhh! and finally we finished our ddct project. I hope we pass.. martin and i have become slaves to the damn thing the past few days. These past few days has shown me many things, that i use too many vulgarities! so i shall cut down starting from tomorrow. to be observant of the language i use. its gonna be difficult... i already tried today but there are just some situations where swearing becomes part and parcel of it already. but its all aboout self control and determination!!!!

i feel like im neglecting the other blog and writing more shit here instead. haha. poor randallintheworld. but thats where the happy thoughts are. along with all the nonsense that i pretend to feel. theres a distinctive difference in my mood when im blogging for both blogs. I feel so much more "at home" typing here.

zzzz im hungry but its already 11 and theres no food at home.
i cant pig out tonight.... sian.

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
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