im torn inside.
After I've built myself back together piece by piece, ready to face the world again.
I Now feel that im crumbling, losing myself again.
Why? Cause i love her. I miss her.
She was the first. But looks like she wont be the last. If I had a say she'd be the one, just that im not ready at the moment.
Guess things were just not meant to be.
Its just sad.

Flashback 2004*
I still remb the day we met at the chalet.
i found u irritating, noisy and a nuisance at first. But after captains ball u were kinda fun.
Leaving the chalet that night... i thought well im never gonna see her again.
But 1 fine day i got her no. from my dear friend brent...
and i asked her out, she said yes.
We agreed to meet at 1230 she showed at 2.... we ate at wok and talk. at novena square. zy was with us. we went out a few more times. and started getting closer.
The nights on the phone, till 5am. talking like there was no tomorrow. then putting down the phone and getting ready for school.
taking mc's together. and spending the rest of the day with each other.
Then came the day. i told her with a whispered voice, I think im falling for you.
she said i think i am too...
The night 23rd july. we went for the mshs concert. i held your hand then inside.
flor and shijie were poking fun at us. but i cherished that moment, the supper at chomp chomp,where we stole away to withdraw money and we held hands again. pass midnight i fetched u home in a cab, u lay on my shoulder the very first time. u smelt so good that night... i still remember... i still have the ticket stub of that night... we sat at the park. and it became official. we were together.
The times we spent together were great you made such an impact on my life. i wouldnt be the man i am today without you.
You gave me a second chance. but i just wasnt ready. and now it seems i wont be so lucky as to get another try...
So let me say this 1 last time: "I Love You".
you were my friend, lover and companion. ill never forget you.
Goodbye.
Its time to move on with my life.

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt. .
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